Firstly I’m sorry that this letter is to both of you and I have not written one letter to each of you like I did for Lily. Since you have been born we have tried so hard to treat you as individuals and to nurture your individual personalities, yet at times like this it is impossible not to think of you together as you start the next step of your journey, starting school; together but separately.
On Tuesday you will do the usual walk to school we have done every day since Lily started but this time you will not be going into pre-school together, but you will be going into separate classes for the first time, a decision we have made.
As I type this letter I have started to cry, real proper tears, I have no idea how I am going to get through next Tuesday without you seeing this doubt I have, and I must. I must watch you walk into school without each other and if you wobble (which you might) I have to smile confidently and tell you it’ll be brilliant and you will love your time in school and your space from each other.
I truly believe we are doing the right thing. You have such different identities and you are starting to be cross that people can’t see that and get you confused. You are so close but also competitive, you have always had to share things, birthdays, presents, your face, a bedroom.
Your class will be yours and yours alone. You will hopefully make your own friends and have your own parties to attend, your own play dates. It’s the start of a new journey that doesn’t involve each other in everything you do.
It’s going to be tough for us all. I’m currently trying to work out how to plan a party for possibly 60 kids and, worried about the possible 60 party invites you might receive. I’m worried that one of you might be able to go to more parties than the other, and worried that one of you might be more popular and settle quicker. It’s the same issues all parents worry about but somehow it seems to be magnified.
I rationalise the decision by working out that you will only actually be apart for about 5 hours with break time and lunch but it’s bigger than that and I know it.
I hope when you’re a little bigger and you read this you will understand why we made the decision and I hope that you think we were right. But for now I want you both to know how proud we both are of you. You have grown into such amazing beautiful girls who are truly a delight to be around. I am so thankful for the time we had the last 6 months as the early days were so hard, it’s been very special to have some fun time and enjoy this crazy blogging world with you.
I know that you will take the learning at school in your stride, you’ve been trying to keep up with Lily this year as it is. So I hope you go into school with that confidence and enjoy making new friends, cementing other friendships and becoming strong independent girls in your own right.
With all my love